Please excuse the lengthy post ahead!
I was raised by my Mom to ask for help when I needed help. She taught me there was no shame in it and that we are all here to help each other, especially when times are tough. And I’ve never hesitated to ask for help even though sometimes it was hard to admit that I had failed or was failing. This time is a little different, because I am failing so completely and because it is so dire and stems from some very personal things. But for those same reasons, I feel my back is against the wall I HAVE to ask for help.
Last month I took on sketch commissions (which I am still working on) in order to get us through our end of the month onslaught of bills. Our mortgage being the most important one. We scraped by - just barely - but we did it! Our hope was that my husband would have a job shortly thereafter and this month we would not need to scrape money together to not lose our power, water, home. Unfortunately, things have not gone the way we wanted or expected.
My husband is suffering from mental health issues. I have always hesitated to discuss this because it is a difficult topic both for him and for me, but also because there are many people who even refuse to acknowledge it as a legitimate issue. It started last September or so and has gotten progressively worse (he HAS sought help during this time and IS currently on medication which is not helping him). I am so mentally and emotionally exhausted. It is a lot of work being on the other side of a marriage when someone is mentally ill. It is heartbreaking. And frustrating. And it can make you deeply sad. I want my husband to get better. I want him to be him again. I want him to be happy. His mental health has gotten worse and worse and to the point where he lost his job because of it (I can’t go into further detail unfortunately but please know that it was not ultimately under his control). We have no insurance and so though he needs more help, he has not gotten additional help.
Yesterday was a big wake up call for us. He needs help right now. It is serious and we aren’t taking any chances. On Monday he will be going to Mental Health Services and seeking any help they can give us. The problem is, we aren’t sure what they will be able to do about the fact that we have no income and bills that will be due in the next 1-2 weeks. We can’t pay for things while he seeks help. We have gotten what help we can from community outreach programs and thanks to that and my family we have always had food. But paying our mortgage, the power, etc - that’s another story.
I am willing to work. I WANT to work. I don’t like taking money for nothing and I will gladly produce art for money. I need it desperately. Please help me while I try to support my husband while he gets better. I have different types of commissions available and I will list them below along with any details. Any help will be appreciated. I need about a thousand dollars in the next 2 weeks. It’s a tall order, but I am trying desperately to do what I can at this point to allow my husband to get help and not focus on what is going on here at home while he does it, so that he can just go and get better.
Tips and donations are not necessary but are always welcome and appreciated. Please reblog. Please share with friends and family. If you know someone who has experienced something similar, you know how hard it is. How mental illness will reach every aspect of your life and destroy it. Please help me keep it from destroying every part of our lives. I do not want to lose our home.
As an aside, we also need to take our dog to the vet. He has a bump on his nose and we can’t tell what it’s from :(
I take Paypal. You can paypal me at email@example.com - please pay the paypal fees if you hire me, I would appreciate it so very much.
Again, tips and donations welcome. Please note that I can’t tell you when your commission will be finished, I have a bunch to do right now but I promise that I will get to them as quickly as possible and that every commission is done with love and care.
Sketch commissions (single char only) - above two examples - guaranteed half body-ish with loose color. $10 each
Fully painted portrait with background (last example) - $75 each
Sketch commission (no example sorry) portrait style, rough lines, loose color just head/shoulders - $5 each
Please no furries or mecha. Sensual or tasteful nudity is fine (no hardcore). Other than that, I’m ready to draw for you!!
Again, paypal payment you can pay me at firstname.lastname@example.org - tips and donations appreciated so very much. Please cover paypal fees if hiring me, I would appreciate it. Please pass this on.
And followers, please excuse me as I will be reblogging this from time to time. I appreciate your patience so much.